Regret.

So many things appear in my mind today. Today I realized how stupid I was, how much time I've spent just to do something useless, meaningless. I was good in wasting time, and now here I am, regreting myself for being lazy in my past days. I have studied piano for almost 9 years and mostly I didn't learn it in earnest. Wondering how many times my teacher said "you can if you want, you have that talent, you have that music insticnt. You shouln't waste it." Wishing I'd realize that time is precious. I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t. So this time I have to pay for it with my hard work. I have to be a success pianist. I won't waste my talent.

Finger's Journal

I practise the Czerny, Bach and Fantasie Impromptu, and many else today. As I try to make it with good touch, I feel my fingers are failing me. I don't know if it's because my concentration-chaos or it's my degraded fingers. I'm not really good in finger-far-movement and Czerny is on the way to train me. I feel it's starting to get to the stress point.
And I only can try to do the best.

"Life is one grand, sweet song, so start the music"

"Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy." - Ludwig Van Beethoven

"Music is your own experience, your own thoughts, your wisdom. If you don't live it, it won't come out of your horn. They teach you there's a boundary line to music. But, man, there's no boundary line to art." - Charlie Parker 

"Nothing exists without music, for the universe itself is said to have been framed by a kind of harmony of sounds, and the heaven itself revolves under the tone of that harmony." - Isidore of Seville

"A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence." - Leopold Stokowski

"It's easy to play any musical instrument: all you have to do is touch the right key at the right  time and the instrument will play itself." - J.S. Bach

"Music is the art... which most completely realizes the artistic idea and is the condition to which all the other arts are constantly aspiring." - Oscar Wilde

“Simplicity is the final achievement. After one has played a vast quantity of notes and more notes, it is simplicity that emerges as the crowning reward of art.” - Frederic Chopin

"As long as there is a song in your heart, there will always be hopes and dreams." - Patrick N. Nagovan

"Music is harmony, harmony is perfection, perfection is our dream, and our dream is heaven." - Amiel